looking back and moving forward

as to my last post (from over a year ago)-- correction: it had actually been 2 years since i had started the blog and still only 17 posts. i have since come to the conclusion that looking for meaning in the world is a useless endeavor. my "purpose" is not determined by any outside source. it simply comes from within. in order to give our lives meaning, we must rediscover our own passions and then put forth effort to make them materialize. pretty simple, really. face-palm simple, in fact. but - hey - i may be slow, but at least i can be taught. i have a hunch that there are many who will "live" for many years, and die never having realized this truth...

no more

i started this blog just about a year ago. i have posted 17 times. this is typical of my life--loose ends everywhere. i have no drive, no focus, and no goals. i am at a loss to find meaning in anything anymore. what is the point, then, of carrying on, when i have no idea just what the hell it is i am supposed to be--or who i even am.

feeling "dissed"

disappointed, discombobulated, disconcerted, disconnected, discontented, discouraged, disenchanted, disenthralled, disentranced, disgruntled, disillusioned, disinterested, disjointed, dismayed, disorganized, displaced, displeased, disquieted, dissatisfied, distracted, distressed, disturbed

some days i just want to

disappear

the in between time

which way to go now??

10 years ago today a terrible tragedy took place. 2,977 people were killed by a terrorist attack, in the meantime, over 6,000 US troops have been killed because they were sent to fight wars that never should have been started. today, everyone wants to remember ("never forget!") the horrible event that gave GWB an excuse to wage unnecessary wars at the expense of our young men and women, and for what? imo, he is the biggest terrorist of them all and his legacy of terror remains operative. which brings to mind the questions, WHY?? and WTF is wrong with people that their brains do not comprehend the hypocrisy of our country's leaders??

well here it is over a year since my last post. the job is no more, i got fired. it's okay, there are plenty of other things i want to do with my life. now i just have to get over my own bad tendencies -- procrastination station :P

my how time flies

been three months since i posted anything. i freaking hate my job. it is consuming me and robbing me of my sanity and my health! :(